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SINGLES

LYRICS

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Holding my breath not taking a step

The good church has closed its doors on me

God don't like my dirty feet

Burning the lawn everybody's gone

Ain't no barbeque going on today

I drink my dinner in the shade

Days and days go by

Children laughing still I don't smile at all

Mary's calling to me can't you see what I see

She would never let me down

It's been a long time at the bottom

I spend a lot of time way down there

It's been a long time at the bottom

I don't know how I made it here

Been living a lie my kisses are dry

I got nowhere else left to run

My love is blind deaf and dumb

Heaven can't wait to lock up the gate

Tell me that I never could belong

I had my chance but got it wrong

Days and days go by

Children laughing still I don't smile at all

Mary's calling to me can't you see what I see

She would never let me down

It's been a long time at the bottom

I spend a lot of time way down there

It's been a long time at the bottom

I don't know how I made it here

Mother Mary stay with me don't let me die

You're the only good part left of my trash

God knows I can't change me

I've tried and tried I never meant to make you cry

It's been a long time at the bottom

I spend a lot of time way down there

It's been a long time at the bottom

I don't know how I made it here

You make me laugh you make me sing

You make me want to give you everything

In life that I never had

You say the sky is all vanilla

And you swear there's a gorilla

Living in the bubbles of your bath

But now that you're here what mattered has shattered

I'm shattered for good

Just remember my beautiful child

We're just here for a little while

So live like your dying and laugh till you cry

And love yourself like I do my beautiful child

You say there are monkeys in the trees

You want to feed them some of your frozen peas

'Cause monkeys get hungry too

Can't wait to see when you turn three

The infinite possibilities popping

Like popcorn inside of you

But nothing before or after could ever

Bring laughter like yours

Just remember my beautiful child we're just here for a little while So live like your dying and laugh till you cry

And love yourself like I do my beautiful

You will crash you will burn

When you do you will learn

Just like me in my youth

Search the trash for the truth

When the streets make you think

There's no God down this deep

If it won't cure you

It will surely make you smile

Just remember my beautiful child

We're just here for a little while

So laugh like you're crazy and dance in the aisle

And love yourself like I do my beautiful

Just remember my beautiful child

We're only here for a little while

So live like you're dying and cry till you smile

And love yourself like I do

Forgive yourself if you have to

Choose yourself cause I do

Never loose yourself cause I love you my beautiful child

Hell is on to me

This desert wants a she

Black fire becomes the road

Diving down the dark

Gold inside my heart

Black fire begins to blow

Yeah I'm crashing down

And there's no one for miles around

Crashing down on the road

On the road on the quiet side of the road

I begin to run

Begging for someone

Bring mercy for my soul

Too damn tired to breath

I'm too damn scared to scream

And my will begins to slow

Yeah I'm crashing down

And there's no one for miles around

Crashing down on the road

On the road on the quiet side of the road

I guess that I just don't know better

Or I'd change my ways I'd change everything

But we all can't live forever

So I'll take my fate and swallow hole

I can hear his heels

The scratching of his tail

He's coming for my gold

On his chest it reads

Liars tramps and thieves

My name is big and bold

Crashing down

And there's no one for miles around

Crashing down on the road

On the road on the quiet side of the road

Go on and crash the car

Take the keys I won't get far

Nowhere will do just fine

Here I am again beginning at another end

Theres no turning back this time

Don't let me down

I need you now

To make it easy

Dying ain't that hard

So in a little while

I'm gonna make it easy

The sweet sunshine won't let me be

A good man wants to marry me

I burn my house to the ground

Wine and roses and a symphony

The best things in life are terrifying me

I break my heart every time

Don't let me down

I need you now

To make it easy

Dying ain't that hard

So in a little while

I'm gonna make it easy

Do you want the good news

Or the bad news

Do you want the good things

No you want everything

Keep your possessions

I've made my decision

And it was easy

Easy

I've waited for this all my life

Don't let me down

I need you now

To make it easy

Dying ain't that hard

So in a little while

I'm gonna make it easy

I need you now to make it easy

Dying ain't that hard

So in a little while

I'm gonna make it easy

Make it easy

Make it easy

Make it easy

Are you liar or are you a thief

Are you a dog 'cause I am the leash

Are you a son or are you a bitch

I am your god the scratch you can't itch

Face forward son

Face forward son

You are your gun

I beat you down your back I will break

I'll make you beg I'll make your soul shake

This ain't no nursery so kiss that floor

This is your life the American core

Face forward son

Face forward son

Face forward son

Face forward son

You are your gun

Are you a son or are you a bitch

I am your God the scratch you can't itch

It was you and me sitting in an apple tree

At the summers end we were only 17

We held on so tight that September night

Then you promised me

We're never getting older

We're never gonna be that way

Remember when I told ya

We would make it out someday

Let them say we're crazy 'cause we've already won

When you promised me we'd be forever young

I got your letter I can't seem to put it down

It makes it better to have a piece of you around

They're all just strangers their words don't mean a thing

I swear I'll die here I swear that I'd do anything

To be back again at the summer's end

When you promised me

We're never getting older

We're never gonna be that way

Remember when I told ya

We would make it out someday

Let them say we're crazy 'cause we've already won

When you promised me we'd be forever

Sooner or later time gets the best of you

I should have known better

You gotta do what you gotta do

If I had me a river I'd sit and watch it run by

I'd never let it run dry I'm never gonna say goodbye

We're never getting older

We're never gonna be that way

Remember when I told ya

We would make it out someday

They still say we're crazy and I still say we won

When you promised me we'd be forever young

Forever young

Forever young

Forever young

Forever young

Forever young

I ain't got style like a magazine

No my shoes don't shine

I ain't got pride like a beauty queen

Can't even walk a straight line

Somebody say the best things in life are on the inside

Say my name all my love's in vain in the welfare line

Nobody told me there'd be days like these

There's gotta be something more than misery

It's the salt that stings

As good as it gets

I want the sunshine

As good as it gets

Champagne all the time

As good as it gets

I'll live on wine and roses

So hold me closer

Until I break a sweat

It ain't as good as it gets

I'm working on dreams

Call 'em jellybeans

They make me laugh out loud

When the crowd screams

It is good indeed

And makes my mama proud

Somebody say the best things in life get 'em while I can

Say my name I think it's gonna rain I got to find my man

Nobody told me where the sun's gonna shine

Heaven is only when the good's inside

Right before I die

As good as it gets

I want the sunshine

As good as it gets

Champagne all the time

As good as it gets

I'll live on wine and roses

So hold me closer

Until I break a sweat

It ain't as good as it gets

Somebody say

Wanna break out wanna break out

Won't you let me in

Wanna make out wanna make out

Fill my cup again

I wanna break out I wanna break out

Won't you let me in

I wanna make out I wanna make out

Fill my cup again to the fucking rim

As good as it gets

I want the sunshine

As good as it gets

Champagne all the time

As good as it gets

I want the sunshine

As good as it gets

Champagne all the time

I'll live on wine and roses

So hold me closer

If I don't break a sweat

It ain't as good as it gets

As good as it gets

As good as it gets

Somebody say

As good as it gets

If I don't break a sweat

It ain't as good as it gets

Hell is on the TV

The world I know is screaming

What a way to cut me down

Everything is shaking

No give and only taking

If I could only kill that sound

If there is anyone still up there

Won't you take a good look around

Please heaven look down

She will never go to school today

Or know the home or know the way

Doesn't she deserve a chance

Her daddy can't keep from drinking

His heart had drowned and it's sinking

Something come and save that man

If there is anyone still up there

Won't you take a good look around

When will heaven look down

And don't don't don't don't leave

And don't don't don't don't leave

I'm begging you God please

Down on broken knees

If you can hear me now

Take a good look around

Then heaven look down

And I don't really know the way out

And I don't think that I can take it anymore

Hell is on the tv

The world I know is screaming

What a way to cut me down

And don't don't don't dont leave

And don't don't don't don't leave

I'm begging you God please

Don't leave don't leave

Don't don't don't don't leave

I'm begging you God please

Down on broken knees

If you can hear me now

Take a good look around

And now a good look around

And now take a good look around

And heaven look down

Love is cold hard and cruel yeah on the way down

When a man just don't want you no part of you around

Love is cold hard and cruel yeah on the way down

All the way down

I ain't no soldier ain't no saviour

I ain't no winner and I ain't that proud

I'm just a woman a jealous woman

Who wants to love you love you out loud

But she is so pretty

She is a beauty she is a lady

Laughing in the clouds

Jealousy look what you've done to me

Jealousy look what you've done

Jealousy look what you've done to me

Now she's loving you not me

If I could take back you know I would take back

Every mistake in my face

I would try harder try and be stronger

I would love longer in every way

But she is so lovely

She's like a painting in the garden

I can't catch my breath

Jealousy look what you've done to me

Jealousy look what you've done

Jealousy look what you've done to me

Now she's loving you not me

Love is cold hard and cruel yeah on the way down

When a man just don't want you no part of you around

Love is cold hard and cruel yeah on the way down

All the way down

She hangs around the boulevard

She's a local girl with local scars

She got home late she got home late

She drank so hard the bottle ached

And she tried and she tried and she tried and she tried

But nothing's clear in a bar full of lies

So she takes and she takes she takes and she takes

She understands when she gives it away

She says man I gotta get outta this town

Man I gotta get outta this pain

Man I gotta get outta this town

Outta this town and out of L.A.

She's got a gun she's got a gun

She got a gun she calls the lucky one

She left a note right by the phone

Don't leave a message 'cause this ain't no home

And she cried and she cried and she cried and she cried

She cried so long her tears ran dry

She laughed and she laughed she laughed and she laughed 'cause she knew she was never coming back

She said man I'm gonna get outta this town

Man I'm gonna get outta this pain

Man I'm gonna get outta this town

Outta this town and out of L.A.

It's all she loves

It's all she hates

It's all too much for her to take

She can't be sure just where it ends

Or where the good life begins

So she took a train she took a train

To a little old town without a name

She met a man he took her in

But fed her all the same bullshit again

'Cause he lied and he lied and he lied and he lied

He lied like a salesman selling flies

So she screamed and she screamed and she screamed and she screamed

It's a different place but the same old thing

It's all I love

It's all I hate

It's all too much for me to take

I can't be sure where it begins

Or if the good life lies within

So she said

Man I gotta get out of this town

Yeah now I gotta get back on that train

Man I gotta get out of this town

I'm outta my pain

So I'm going back to L.A.

I keep my head on straight

And my eyes wide open

I try to move forward

Wishing and hoping

I took a hold of myself

In the middle of November

Don't you look back now

Is all I can remember

I feel like I'm leaving

Like I'm leaving home

Like the clouds are parting

And I'm not alone

I'm learning to live living to learn

Starting to sing my song right or wrong

Breaking away setting me free

Free to be my own me

I'm learning to live

I got my vanity crisis

From my beautiful mother

I'm not gonna go there

I'm anything other

Take another deep breath now

It's just one more hurdle

I'm breaking this line

Before it comes full circle

I feel like I'm leaving

Like I'm leaving home

Like the clouds are parting

And I'm not alone

I'm learning to live living to learn

Starting to sing my song right or wrong

Breaking away setting me free

Free to be my own me

I'm learning to live

I found a place where I can lay my shit down

Somewhere that I can finally be myself

Be myself

I'm learning to live living to learn

Starting to sing my song right or wrong

Breaking away setting me free

Free to be my own me

I'm learning to live

I've seen myself with a dirty face

I cut my luck with a dirty ace

I leave the light on

I leave the light on

Daddy ain't that bad he just plays rough

I ain't that scarred when I'm covered up

I leave the light on

Little girl hiding underneath the bed

Was it something I did must be something I said

I leave the light on

Better leave the light on

I wanna love I wanna live

I don't know much about it I never did

17 and I'm all messed up inside

I cut myself just to feel alive

I leave the light on

21 on the run on the run on the run from myself

From myself and everyone

I leave the light on

I leave the light on

Better leave the light on

Cause I wanna love I wanna live

I don't know much about it I never did

I don't know what to do

Can the damage be undone

I swore to God I'd never be what I've become

Lucky stars and fairytales

I'm gonna bathe myself in a wishing well

Pretty scars from cigarettes I never will forget

I never will forget

I'm still afraid to be alone

Wish that the moon would follow me home

I leave the light on

I ain't that bad I'm just messed up

I ain't that sad but I'm sad enough

Cause I wanna love I wanna live

I don't know much about it I never did

I don't know what to do

Can the damage be undone

I swore to God I'd never be what I've become

God bless the child with the dirty face

Who cuts her luck with a dirty ace

She leaves the light on

I leave that light on

No more scars no more stones

No more words I can't take it no more

No more bullets no country hypocrisy

Can't take it no more

Your promises wash away like rain

And I'll be missing you

I'll be missing you

I don't want to fight no more

I'll be missing you

No more danger your angers

The stranger I can't take it no more

No more ruthless excuses they're useless

I can't take it no more

We're only children after all

But I'll be missing you

I'll be missing you

I don't want to fight no more

I don't want to fight

I'll be missing you

We're only children after all

I swear I saw you needing me

We're only children after

Children after

Children after all

No more scars no more stones

No more words I can't take it no more

No more ruthless excuses they're useless

I can't take it no more

And I'll be missing you

I'll be missing you

I don't want to fight no more

I'll be missing you

I'll be missing you

I don't want to fight no more

I don't want to fight

I'll be missing you

I'll be missing you

I'll be missing you

Oh Father come together

My sisters and all my brothers

Apathy getting crazy

Help me understand

There's water there fire

Which one should I aspire

Compassion or reaction

What will command

Reach out and hold me

Reach out and bite my hand

I'm like a one-eyed chicken and a two-legged dog

Shrinking heads in the chicken then I piss on the lawn

I'm not the kind of woman that you want to take home

Only heaven knows a devils pain

I just can't change

I'm digging digging digging digging digging on you

Digging digging digging digging digging on me

We're digging digging digging digging digging are we

What we're gonna do

Oh Father make it better

Make my love shine bigger than ever

Tell Jesus never leave us this is my prayer

There's kindness there's cruelty

A little bit of both inside of me

Come love me come heal me

Make me aware

Reach out and hold me

Reach out and bite my hand

I'm like a one eyed-chicken and a two-legged dog

Shrinking heads in the chicken then I piss on the lawn

I'm not the kind of woman that you want to take home

Only heaven knows a devils shame

I just can't change

So glad you made it or I'd be nothing at all

I'm tired and faded I'm like a wrecking ball

I'm like a one-eyed chicken and a two-legged dog

Shrinking heads in the chicken then I piss on the lawn

I'm not the kind of woman that you want to take home

Only heaven knows a devils pain

I just can't change

I just can't change

I'm digging digging digging digging digging on you

Digging digging digging digging digging on me

We're digging digging digging digging digging are we

What we're gonna do

Lonelier tonight than a sinking stone

And I can hardly breathe

I am drowning in the dark

Wrong is never right still I'm breaking bones

And every part of me

Hear the pounding of my heart

Mama I can hardly wait

To take a little chance on fate

Chew it up and spit it out

Finally see what love's about

I'm living loving laughing over you

Tossing turning trying over you

Kicking screaming crying over you

Wanting needing dying to get over you

Mama always said that you'll know better

When you do grow up

All that you got to do is breath

Take a little look inside yourself

And see what turns you on

And then you will finally see

Mama I can hardly wait

To take a little chance of fate

Kick it up into the sky

Finally see what love feels like

I'm living loving laughing over you

Tossing turning trying over you

Kicking screaming crying over you

Wanting needing dying to get over you

Lay me down under the covers

'Cause this life makes me sick

I beg your attention from my generation

This is all your fault

You feed me distractions and sell misdirections

This is all your fault

The blind are trying to lead the way

It's time someone had something to say

But nothing changes we're all strangers

Faces in the crowd

If these are the choices we get from our voices

Then you can count me out

Lay me down over the ocean

Where the good life still exits

Lay me down under the covers

'Cause this life makes me sick

We're alienated suppressed and sedated

This is all your fault

Don't want compensation from your hate corporation

This is all your fault

The lost are trying to lead the way

The cost is left for us to pay

But nothing changes we're all strangers

Faces in the crowd

If these are the choices we get from our voices

Then you can count me out

Lay me down over the ocean

Where the good life still exits

Lay me down under the covers

'Cause this life makes me sick

It makes me

It makes me

It makes me

Sick

I beg your attention from my generation

This is all your fault

I am not discouraged or the slightest bit nervous

You've been voted out

You're going down motherfucker

Lay me down over the ocean

Where the good life still exits

Lay me down under the covers

'Cause this life makes me

Lay me down over the ocean

Where the good life still exits

Lay me down under the covers

'Cause this life makes me sick

It makes me

It makes me

It makes me

Sick

When you cant find the light

That got you through a cloudy day

When the stars ain't shining bright

You feel like you've lost your way

When those candle lights of home

Burn so very far away

Well you got to let your soul shine

Just like my mama used to say

She used to say soulshine

It's better than sunshine

It's better than moonshine

Damn sure better than rain

And if the people don't mind

We all feel this way sometimes

Got to let your soul shine

Shine through the break of day

Growing up I thought I had it made

I could make it on my own

But life can take the strongest man

Make him feel so alone

Now sometimes I feel the cold wind

Blowing through my aching bones

I think back to what my daddy said

He said girl it's the darkest before the dawn

Let your soul shine

It's better than sunshine

It's better than moonshine

Damn sure better than rain

And if the people don't mind

We all feel this way sometimes

You got to let your soul shine

Shine through the break of day

Sometimes a man can feel this emptiness

Like a woman has shot down to his very soul

A woman too God knows she can feel like this

And when the world seems cold

You got to let your spirit take control

You got to let your soul shine

It's better than sunshine

It's better than moonshine

Damn sure better than rain

And if the people don't mind

We all feel this way sometimes

You got to let your soul shine

Shine through the break of day

You got to let your soul shine

Shine through the break of day

Roll the top down

Feel the dark

Whole I'm not now

Kill it apart

Years are running by like these old roads

Tears are falling down like waterfalls

Like water

Roll the top down

Feel the dark

Whole I'm not now

Kill it apart

Years are running by like these old roads

Tears are falling down like waterfalls

Like water

Shadow boxer

Save some for me

Ever after

I don't believe

Years are rolling by like these old roads

Tears are falling down like waterfalls

Like water

Years are running by like these old roads

Tears are falling down like waterfalls

Water

Mama tell me don't gimme none

No don't gimme none of that lip

Gotta get me some before the devils comes

I gotta get me some of that shit

Mama tell me don't gimme none

No don't gimme none of that lip

Gotta get me some before the devils comes

I gotta get me some of that shit

Years are rolling by like these old roads

Tears are falling down like waterfalls

Like water

Years are rolling by like these old roads

Tears are falling down like waterfalls

Water

Mama tell me don't gimme none

No don't gimme none of that lip

Gotta get me some before the devils comes

I gotta get me some of that shit